THis is what I do at work...

Working at a book store has its good times~

So I just became a finalist for the 10-10-10 Santa Barbara International Film Festival Competition. Whatever happens, my film will be made and screened at the festival in Feburary, mark your calendars.

Theres a red carpet and a press confrence and everything.

I also believe that winning means a scholarship? but I'm not sure yet.

My mentor that I;m working with is Robert Lewis who was a major director/writer in the 80s. And I love the 80s.

EXCITED!!!!

My life.

**Joey came and visited me <3***


So I graduated from Beverly Hills High School. Its weird, I feel like I've accomplished so much, and when I think about it, the only thing I've done is graduated high school.

I'm glad I'm moving on, growing up and moving to greater things.

I live in a beautiful home with my beautiful adopted family. This summer: Europe in 2 weeks and maybe a possible trip to Japan? We'll see. I'm so that I found people who really love me and are willing to take care of me. I'm so blessed. Dont know how I got so lucky....get it? Got LUCKY? nevermind.

Meanwhile, life in a hotel is wonderful. Free gym and spa with pool, I feel like the fat and skinny twins on the Disney channel.


***UPDATE!!!:: heres my new boyfriend Justin****

prom.

Never thought the day would come when I would be able to go to my very own senior prom.

Well, people. That day is tomorrow.

I know its cliche, but I'm super excited. I got a dress (a red one), shoes (sparkling ones), and we're all riding in a LIMO to the SHeraton hotel!!!

Please pray that I don't bust out any Josey Grossey bullshit, or go Carrie on everyones asses, or a She's All That or 10 Things I Hate About You. Or whatever other high school prom nightmares from the 90s.

Its gunna be fun!

Done...

I'm over it... It was just too easy!

I got what I wanted and because it was so easy I'm over it.

When I look at him I don't see him the way I used to. All I see now is someone I deeply love as a friend. I know of instances where it works the other way. Friend to something moRe. For me its friend to something more and back to friend. I think our friendship is stronger now...

Anyways, enough about that.

PROMMMMM!!! So ya I'm such a loser that I can't even find a goddamn date. Actually I can, I'm just too goddamn independent. I'm gunna cruise solo or go with my lesbian girl friend. :)

That damn Justine bieber song.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

When he's with HER ...I can't stop thinking about him.

When he's with ME ... I wish I was somewhere else.

But at the same time, I like the thing we have.
Is that wrong?

It's like that one justin bieber song. Pft. Not like I listen to Justin bieber and have all of his songs on my iPod.
It's not like that at ALL! But Justin just knows how I feel!

Oh high school drama.

We broke up.

Rephrase.

I dumped him.

Art show

I just submitted two art pieces into the student art show.
I dont care that they are there, I just want to win the award and I know I will. I told that to my art teacher Mr. Federman and when he gave me a weird look I said:

"Yeah, im a narcisistic bastard."

Whatever, I dont really like art that much. He thinks I should go to art school and I said HELL no.

But I really like the pieces I did. One Beatles montage and a gladiator/dominatrix paining.

my first art show since I had my TREE EATING TIGER in the Mitaka show. fun fun.

p.s. Im on a computer at the library, therefore am able to make blog posts!

DONATE A COMPUTER TO MJ!!!!!!

Possum Suicides

Donated blood at the bi- annual blood drive at school today. I almost passed out... Ehehehe. It felt good to know that I could probably have saved a life with my pint and a half of blood.

Thats all.

ALIENS IN THE GODDAMN CLOSET!!!!

IN my Film class in 6th period (this is the class where i sit by the uber sexy sexx man) , we've been watching the ALIENS movie, to study Sigourney Weaver's "reluctant hero" character. By the way, freakiest fucking movie EVER! Although, ALIEN was creepy, ALIENS was down right nasty. those damn aliens really scare me.

Anyway, we started talking about PREDATOR as well, among other sci-fi movies. Which got me thinking, why are Humans so anti-alien? I mean, in every science fiction story, humans visit planet, kills its inhabitants and take over planet. Why are aliens always painted in such a bad light? If they are crazy human-eating aliens, they must be exterminated, and if they are intelligent beings, they are not to be trusted.

As far as most aliens are concerned the HUMANS are the intruders. So they're just doing what they naturally would do in a situation where their planet was being intruded upon by aliens (in this case humans). I don't know where all this alien hate came from. Peace and love, people.

Humans and aliens should just co-exists like they do in the Star Wars galaxy. Seems perfectly reasonable to me.

DON:T HATE ON ALIENS!!! accept their differences. There is definitely more prejudice against aliens then there ever was towards gays or blacks or muslims.

p.s. Obviously, in case you didn't catch that, this is all speculation. I don't actually know what aliens will be like, and I don't know (although I can probably guess) what the human reaction will be like.

What do you think?

And now, for something completly different.

Got the lead in the Winter play!!!! My audition was hella amazing. Now to memorize lines.
shit!
I'm performing a scene from Ibsen's A Dolls House in a week and I am freaking out.
I feel very at home when I'm on stage. I just get it.

Im a lumberjack

...and I'm okay.

I wish everyone on earth used credit cards to pay for things. Its so easy. I just swipe the thing though the machine and it gets money. With cash, I have to use math! What the hell is 4.38-3.23? I have no idea!!! next time you pay for something, remember the poor uneducated person behind the register, and think about how I can't do math, and whip out that credit card!! THey will thank you in heaven .

Okay, must get back to studying the concept of the state of nature and Hobbesian vs. Lockean theories!!! DAMN ECONOMICS!!!

Ehehem...

Dear Mommy and Daddy,


I wish you were here to attend my back-to-school night in October. I wish you could see how well I am doing in my classes and how much the teachers like/hate me.
Oh well, carry on.

LEAVE OBAMA ALONE!!!!

cute!~
The following is an exerpt from a report I turned in yesterday:

"Why are you all hating on Obama? Seriously, how has he ever harmed you!? He's done nothing but try to make America a better nation!!!
First of all, he is not socializing the government. And all you Rush Limbaugh listeners out there, Obama is changing America and if you can't deal with it, go hibernate in Mexico.
This whole debate about health care is ridiculous! Death panels? Socialism? Marxism? Really? Are you deaf, or just plain stupid? Do you even understand his policy on Health care reform? Have you heard his proposition, because I heard it and I didn't hear a single word of socialism or marxism.
Have you ever thought that making an investment for health care now will benefit us in the future? and Yeah you'll possibly pay more taxes, but who cares? You'll be happy and healthy and what really matters beides that?
I personally love the idea of a public option. Competition for the private businesses will do everyone good.
And stop hating on Obama because he's black and uber sexy! And better yet, flip the channel to Anderson Cooper and get more doses of sexiness and smartness! SEXY OVERLOAD!
Actually I figured out what the conspiracy behind Obama's majorness and realized the unevitable!!! He IS the ANTICHRIST and...wait for it, but he's controlled by Jay-Z and Beyonce. They control the earth. Listen to "Run this Town" backwords and the words of the prophet will be revealed.
doi?!~
I'm actually serious about that! "

I would have turned that in, had it not been too contraversial and revealing!

The Blind leading the Blind

Recently, I've lost faith in mankind. It's strange. In my AP Economics class with Mr. Hinojosa (who by the by is mucho sexy!) I realized that everything we put ourselves through is so petty. It really means nothing. We just all have to abide by the "rules" set up by people from generations before us. I mean, every single decision that's made today is all compared to an idea of what is socially acceptable.
It's depressing.
Everyone has to base their entire life off of what everyone else is doing. It's sad to think that I have to seek a higher education in order to get a higher paying job in order to provide for my family. Not because I want it to be that way, but because some person billions of years ago decided that that was the way it's going to be.
Life would be just fine if everyone just made their own decisions based on the options that nature has given us. But thanks to mankind, my beautiful earth is fucked to hell and there's no going back.
It's just so hard for me to understand the rational behind all it. Why?

Thankfully, I've devised a plan of an alternative lifestyle. When I'm finally fed up with all you people, I'm moving away to a rain forrest somewhere where I will live in simplicity the way nature intended human beings to. People who complain about life being so complicated, guess what? You brought it on yourself. You decided to be void of personality and run with the flow of society.

Back to School

**the creepy twins from the Shining. I love that movie***

Summer is already over, and I am so ready to get back into school. Somehow, doing nothing does get old, and I miss waking up at 5:30 AM.
This year, my senior year and final year of high school will be tragically awesome!!! I cant believe that I have to leave high school already. I just got here for christssake! I feel like I'm just getting started and I need at least 2 more years of high school to complete it. Too bad...I have to grow up and be more like an adult. I hate you, society. But being a senior will be amazing. Not to mention how chill the teachers will be with me, not that I ever take any of their bullshit. but still.

This year I will be studying hard in:
-English Lit and Composition 7./8
-Physiology
-Geometry 3/4 :(
-Ap Government and Economics :))
-Film/ Cinema analysis
-TAW!!!
-Studio Art
-Business Law

About a 100 more classes than what a regular senior usually takes. But knowledge and education is a privilege that should not be taken for granted!!!! Never I tell you! I have to take advantage of all the free education I can while I can before its off to college.
But for right now, I need to go to Target and Staples for all my back to school shit. Be happy for me~

Google Earth

Did you know that on Google Earth you can look at any location in Satellite view and also look at it in street view. You can literally look at any address in picture form!! it's brilliant
Very Antichrist, very awesome! I mean look!!! Sugoi!!! I can stalk anyone!?


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My Flawed Japan...*sigh*

Why didn't any of the teachers at Go-sho and many other schools disagree with us performing for the students? Our entire show was preaching! Doesn't Japan have some Constitutional thing separating Church and State in some way? I know for a fact that they do. How could those teachers, and even those students not be disturbed by the stories of Jesus and the "true meaning of Christmas" and all that bullshit???
Mary had some kind of English teaching gig at our school, which means she must have been getting payed by governmental money from the schools budget. Yet there she was, preaching away to helpless little Japanese kids. How could HORIKOSHI sensei stand for such non sense.
I remember dancing one christmas and creepy Ishii kochousensei with the creepy grin was standing right there through the whole 50 minutes class where we did chi-bi chan, and Mary did a whole preachy bit. How could that not have felt wrong to his conservative mind??
I know that if any hired teacher did that at my school I would have no shame in ripping them another asshole. I would be very disturbed if I were a parent and my tax payer's money was being funneled into some person (without a sufficient education...a high school drop out, very likely an illegal immigrant, and didn't even have the proper credentials to teach children) who would then bring her uneducated children to preach some bullshit religion.
I can't even imagine WHY any school system would allow that? even in the slightly reformed Tokyo.
At the time I would never have thought about such a thing, and I haven't in years...but then all of a sudden I realized how uncomfortable it must have been for all those teachers to stand by and watch as my own father, other questionable participants, and I beat down their entire nations constitutional rules.
I am partially amazed at our own stupidity, and the stupidity of the teachers, but mostly I'm amazed at the Japanese society and traditions that demands that their citizens not react in any way to a disturbance. Their own systems tells them to politely stand by and watch as foreigners attempt to convert the children.
Such a shame...

I DID ITT!!!!

  I made TAW (Theater Arts Workshop) the highest level of theater acting in all of BEVERLY HILLS fucking HIGH SCHOOL!

  Ooooh God, it makes me soooo happy to know that I am actually good at something. I was basically wrapped up in nerves ever since my audition on Tuesday ( I did a piece from Charlotte Bronte's Jane Eyre and Theresa Rebeck's Abstract Expressions) when Mr. B my awesome Drama, teacher said one thing after my monologues "Where were you before you came to Beverly?" So I told him Japan...I was wondering for 3 days whether he meant it in a "I just want to know" type of way or the "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE" type of way. I hope he meant the former. 

  Now that I can breathe, I am really proud of myself. There are 2,500 kids that go to my high school and they all live in Beverly Hills where they have the opportunity of being actors. I mean, a lot of celebrity's children go to my school and it also has a large actors alumni. It's crazy. Angelina Jolie, Richard Dreyfus, David Schwimmer, Nicholas Cage... just to name drop a few...Wink Wink, nodge, nodge. 

   And of all those people, I was one of the few that were selected to be in the actors class!!! Thank you Zeus. Now let me bask in my awesome happiness and I will tell you when I'm in the Fall Play. Ooooh I'm so excited! I love it here!!! I might actually have a chance at doing something that comes totally naturally to me...being on stage!!

Here's a picture of my trophy and certificate that I got at the Theater Department awards. Thanks Beverly~

crazy eyes!

<3 <3 For excellence and awesomeness! <3 <3

Things and stuff

Mood: Sad :(

There comes a time in every female's life, when they realize that their life is worth for shit. No matter how much you try, you will feel this at least once in your life if not once a month. Its a given fact.
Anyways, thats what happening right now.

and right now my main sadness making problem is this:

Its off to SMC for me


instead of:


damn...and life goes on.

Henry David Thoreau

I've been studying Thoreau recently and its mind blowing. He puts to words everything that I want to say...expect in a more eloquent and educated way. I love him and his abe lincoln face!

"Simplicity, Simplicity, Simplicity"

and everything he has to say about civil disobedience!? an Amazing man. too bad he died 200 years ago.

did I mention the A++ in my English class?